I mean you gotta turn yourself on. It's like that love thing, "you must love yourself before you can love another and another to love you". It's like that! I mean when you masturbate is it a whatever thing, let me bust this nut? Or is it like "yea me time, hey I've missed you"...lmao. I mean you gotta find yourself sexy. Feel sexy so you can exude sexiness.
It has to come from within. First and foremost, you must be healthy inside out. You have to take care of your health. You want to be detoxicated and supported with the proper nutrients, vitamins & minerals, and enzymes. Be at a healthy, safe, and comfortable weight. Good organic supplements site is www.yorhealth.com/lagygin Then you must be healthy of mind. Your self-esteem and confidence must be central all throughout.
Know yourself well. Your strengths and weaknesses, as they say. Appreciate your efforts and the person you are. Who you are and what is going on in your life has been of your own doing. Be proud of your decisions! Make decisions you will be proud of. Accept yourself. And above all be honest with yourself. With what you want and what you are worth.
Finally be about your shit! If you say you gonna do something do it! Don't stay dreaming and talking. "lights camera action thank you Ms. Jackson! "...lol
Now that is true SeXy!
Jus saying!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Bastards
I put it here for all the world to see.
Ring the alarms and turn on the switch.
I know the secret and I'ma snitch.
Lay it on you without a fee.
Rid the body of all your sins.
Young love exciting but no one ever wins.
Perpetual betrayal, selfishness, and disrespect
Interferring with the love that could be shared.
Warning: After so many cycles love leaves you bare.
Colder now from the warmth you felt
Lonlier now that the space is left
Looking in the mirror wondering when the ache will end.
Regretting how you jumped in for love twisted and bent.
You ready?
Here it goes, signed, sealed, delivered and sent.
Emotions are traitors.
Royal masturbators.
Ego induced drugs
Rock and rob the cradle
Ever since Daddy carried you.
Sit you on his lap and made you giggle.
Your caught.
Chemical reaction produces laughter.
A prequel, a symptom,of love.
A feeling you want to last ever after.
Flip it, scratch it, fondle, and squeeze it.
And the race begins!
Tumble, fumble, your mission to capture it, breathe it, own it, and keep it.
Instead we mistreat it, abuse it, and waste it.
Hearts broken, egos bruised and the cylce continues
One doing to another and that other to another, and that other to yet another
Obsenities against a person, your person, your kind, just love me person.
So keep your head up, eyes focused, shoulders back, hands to the side.
Forward, toward, never backwards
Walk proud like a zombie
Heartlessly empty not concerning yourself with drama.
Taking the make you feel so good
Emptying all concern, remorse, and blindness to kindness.
Its this one, that one, this one today, the other tomorrow.
The usual, the romance, the fairy tale feeling.
"So glad I have found you, love you already, be mine forever..."
Smile, cry, agree, and cuddle.
And do it all again tomorrow with the other.
It's just the way the game is played, it's best if you just stay stoned.
Rock hard marble
Pleasant assassin
Enjoy the ride.
For all the bastards that wronged you, didnt't appreciate you, and passed you.
Be the bastard!
Ring the alarms and turn on the switch.
I know the secret and I'ma snitch.
Lay it on you without a fee.
Rid the body of all your sins.
Young love exciting but no one ever wins.
Perpetual betrayal, selfishness, and disrespect
Interferring with the love that could be shared.
Warning: After so many cycles love leaves you bare.
Colder now from the warmth you felt
Lonlier now that the space is left
Looking in the mirror wondering when the ache will end.
Regretting how you jumped in for love twisted and bent.
You ready?
Here it goes, signed, sealed, delivered and sent.
Emotions are traitors.
Royal masturbators.
Ego induced drugs
Rock and rob the cradle
Ever since Daddy carried you.
Sit you on his lap and made you giggle.
Your caught.
Chemical reaction produces laughter.
A prequel, a symptom,of love.
A feeling you want to last ever after.
Flip it, scratch it, fondle, and squeeze it.
And the race begins!
Tumble, fumble, your mission to capture it, breathe it, own it, and keep it.
Instead we mistreat it, abuse it, and waste it.
Hearts broken, egos bruised and the cylce continues
One doing to another and that other to another, and that other to yet another
Obsenities against a person, your person, your kind, just love me person.
So keep your head up, eyes focused, shoulders back, hands to the side.
Forward, toward, never backwards
Walk proud like a zombie
Heartlessly empty not concerning yourself with drama.
Taking the make you feel so good
Emptying all concern, remorse, and blindness to kindness.
Its this one, that one, this one today, the other tomorrow.
The usual, the romance, the fairy tale feeling.
"So glad I have found you, love you already, be mine forever..."
Smile, cry, agree, and cuddle.
And do it all again tomorrow with the other.
It's just the way the game is played, it's best if you just stay stoned.
Rock hard marble
Pleasant assassin
Enjoy the ride.
For all the bastards that wronged you, didnt't appreciate you, and passed you.
Be the bastard!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Coward
"Good things come to those who wait. Great things come to those who go get it" -J.Lau
I'm really good at keeping busy. I feel uncomfortable any other way. Now the question is do I excel at everything I do? I do not! I am ver ambitious, very competitive. I usually do good in everything I do. I'm a winner. A second place winner.
Yes I said it. Most important is to be honest with yourself. Look at yourself with the same unforgiving & scrutinizing eyes you look upon another. That's negative you say? That's depressing you think? So sad? Au'contraire my friend! It is the kindest thing you can do for yourself! The world is not going to be kind & pity you! It will be harsh! If you plan to succeed, to play the game of life, you must be harsh too! Be harsh to others & be harsh to yourself! You may be saying "What the hell is she talking bout?" Let me explain further! When I say be harsh, I don't mean to scream in someones face or sit there & tell someone they are ugly, fat, skeleton looking, a bitch, stank, etc. I mean to look at them within yourself, observe them. Notice their flaws, their crooked nose or teeth, their consistent bad breath, their acne, eczema, big lips, petruding eyes, you get the picture. Then look into their eyes, here their voice & laughter, and forgive them. Forgive them for being angry for all disapproval they have received. Forgive them for being selfish & looking out for their own happiness after learning that no one would consider their feelings & call them names. Forgive their lack of education on the vanitied of society. Now look at them again. Notice the happiness in their laughter. Notice their will to face the world one more day. Their desire to be accepted, loved, desired. Notice their insecurities on their flaws. Their cowardness to change what has been given to them because of the lack of nurturing, encoragement &, opportunities they have received. Appreciate that despite the harsh reality of life they continue. Listen to people, a stranger, a friend, an aquaintence attentively & hear their soul. The beat of their hearts that beat at the same rythm.
For you, you must be honest in the same way! Sit alone in front of a long mirror. Look at your body, look at you face! Be completely & utterly honest! "My thighs are big. I look like a bag of fat. I'm hairy. My coochie always smells. My teeth are croocked. My nose is big. My face is pretty. I have a sexy booty. A cute mouth. Crooked toes. Cellulite village. Etc.." Why? What's the point in beating yourself down? Because the world does! Everyone looks at you with unforgiving eyes and make judgements. Place you in categories that define your worth. And so you must know where that puts you. Know at what level you are starting at so you can knock em down!! Know your weaknesses, attack them! Learn how to make them an asset. Exemplify your strengths & back them up w/ iron confidence.
The world of money is about selling yourself & that is fueled by confidence. Success is possible to all as long as you claim it & make it your bitch!
So why am I a second place winner? Because I am guilty of getting too comfortable. I do just enough to get by. I know that I can do more, do better. I have confidence, but not enough to make me #1. I'm working on it tho! You work on you! Promise? Not to me, to you!
I'm really good at keeping busy. I feel uncomfortable any other way. Now the question is do I excel at everything I do? I do not! I am ver ambitious, very competitive. I usually do good in everything I do. I'm a winner. A second place winner.
Yes I said it. Most important is to be honest with yourself. Look at yourself with the same unforgiving & scrutinizing eyes you look upon another. That's negative you say? That's depressing you think? So sad? Au'contraire my friend! It is the kindest thing you can do for yourself! The world is not going to be kind & pity you! It will be harsh! If you plan to succeed, to play the game of life, you must be harsh too! Be harsh to others & be harsh to yourself! You may be saying "What the hell is she talking bout?" Let me explain further! When I say be harsh, I don't mean to scream in someones face or sit there & tell someone they are ugly, fat, skeleton looking, a bitch, stank, etc. I mean to look at them within yourself, observe them. Notice their flaws, their crooked nose or teeth, their consistent bad breath, their acne, eczema, big lips, petruding eyes, you get the picture. Then look into their eyes, here their voice & laughter, and forgive them. Forgive them for being angry for all disapproval they have received. Forgive them for being selfish & looking out for their own happiness after learning that no one would consider their feelings & call them names. Forgive their lack of education on the vanitied of society. Now look at them again. Notice the happiness in their laughter. Notice their will to face the world one more day. Their desire to be accepted, loved, desired. Notice their insecurities on their flaws. Their cowardness to change what has been given to them because of the lack of nurturing, encoragement &, opportunities they have received. Appreciate that despite the harsh reality of life they continue. Listen to people, a stranger, a friend, an aquaintence attentively & hear their soul. The beat of their hearts that beat at the same rythm.
For you, you must be honest in the same way! Sit alone in front of a long mirror. Look at your body, look at you face! Be completely & utterly honest! "My thighs are big. I look like a bag of fat. I'm hairy. My coochie always smells. My teeth are croocked. My nose is big. My face is pretty. I have a sexy booty. A cute mouth. Crooked toes. Cellulite village. Etc.." Why? What's the point in beating yourself down? Because the world does! Everyone looks at you with unforgiving eyes and make judgements. Place you in categories that define your worth. And so you must know where that puts you. Know at what level you are starting at so you can knock em down!! Know your weaknesses, attack them! Learn how to make them an asset. Exemplify your strengths & back them up w/ iron confidence.
The world of money is about selling yourself & that is fueled by confidence. Success is possible to all as long as you claim it & make it your bitch!
So why am I a second place winner? Because I am guilty of getting too comfortable. I do just enough to get by. I know that I can do more, do better. I have confidence, but not enough to make me #1. I'm working on it tho! You work on you! Promise? Not to me, to you!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Shadows
In a dark mood...part of the job
to own and exemplify the traces of sin unspoken
your dont's embedded encryptedly cuddling next to the do's
just waiting for the moment to step out of the shadows
waiting for the moment that darkness creeps in
when the sun has set and dawn is far away
the mind starts to wonder
the truth of what you feel seeps in
starts to tear and from your pores plan their escape
sanity mistaken for insane
dispicable naughty thoughts that dare not come to ligh
delight in the mystery of the psyche
seeing validation to this senseless worthlessness
love denied
acid spit opening the gashes to your inner squeals
you squeal
inside just itching to come out
Let it out to play
to own and exemplify the traces of sin unspoken
your dont's embedded encryptedly cuddling next to the do's
just waiting for the moment to step out of the shadows
waiting for the moment that darkness creeps in
when the sun has set and dawn is far away
the mind starts to wonder
the truth of what you feel seeps in
starts to tear and from your pores plan their escape
sanity mistaken for insane
dispicable naughty thoughts that dare not come to ligh
delight in the mystery of the psyche
seeing validation to this senseless worthlessness
love denied
acid spit opening the gashes to your inner squeals
you squeal
inside just itching to come out
Let it out to play
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
New Year's 3 weeks in!
Ok so I started my blog way into the month. But I didn't wait as long to start on my goals and that's what it's all about! So goals goals goals! We hear about them every year. Truth is we're so use to hearing about them, contemplating on them, and forgetting about them in a month's time. pwua pwua pwua! Do you like disappointing yourself? Do you like quitting on the things you want? Of course not! So how can you rectify yourself? Well first thing is you have to decide! You have got to look at your self and say "Mumba, this is the year! Yor year!" For me it's the last fat year! The last year I am going to be fat! No more big girl, although I did it fabulously! But it is bye bye fat girl, hello confident "looking" girl! What is your goal? what would you like of this year? Your own place? A car? A new job? A new man? What ever you need. the world is at your finger tips. A new Year means a new opportunity to make it right for yourself. To re-evaluate what you truly want, who you truly want to be, and make it happen. I urge you to take your opportunity! Start by writing down your goals and then plan them out. What steps do you have to take to make it? It's neccesary to be true to yourself! You deserve to have what you want and to be happy. It's all up to you! Ever wonder what successful ppl have? It's a plan and the determination to fulfill it! The good thing is that you can do that too! So Indulge in success! I believe in you! Question is, do you believe in yourself?
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Off the Wagon..
...we have ladies and gentlemen what we fat bastards like to call falling off the wagon... it is when your fatness has caught up to you again.
Sad but true ladies and gentlemen, I have fallen off the wagon. Now only 2 things I can do here. I can wallow in self-pity and indulge the fatness for o'l times sake or..
I can bootcamp my ass into fitness! Sadness has returned.Ladies and gentlemen this can get ugly!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Honor Yourself
Don't be afraid to honor yourself! When you do you, then others will! Be true to yourself. What do you TRULY want? Are you getting it here (in your relationship, at work, at home, etc.)? Don't be afraid to demand it! You deserve it damn it and nor you or anyone else should take that away from you!! BE STRONG! The hardest thing to do is usually the right thing! I know it burns, but it's the only way it'll heal! Let things go and be FREE!!! If it's meant to be, believe yourself!, and it'll be! I love you mankind! I love you for the beauty you can be! I seek to help you find that light! So we can all shine bright, and blind the darkness! Speak to yourself! Listen to yourself! We are more connected to the universe! To what we should do and where we should be, then we take notice of. Our daily distractions and lives have drowned out the intuition we have been given as a map to our path. TUNE IN!! Value yourself! For you are beautiful! When you know that, and honor that! You will be free! & I promise get what you deserve & (since not always what you want is good for you), usually what you want.
I love you, because I finally love myself!
I love you, because I finally love myself!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Worthy of commenting
Look at this guy here! Shakes it better than any bitch out there. It's amazing watching him. I feel him strip away my femininity with every jiggle. Weeepa! Dale pa' ya!
Also worthy of commenting on is that you can also be this great. Find what you are good at. Find what makes you move in an amazing ways. His happens to be shaking his ass and hips. So what are your's? haha! Come out with it! Get with it? Chip chop all those no no no's...and get that beautiful you.
Focus
Plan it out
Make it happen!
Love ya! Thanks donka dunk dude!~
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